This has happened before. One time. [She thought it was behind her, but knows now that she'd only stuffed it far back in her mind into the little hole where she keeps Enoshima and Syo and people she's never given names. The ice surges through her spine to her tongue as she remembers.]

When I asked if I could be this other her again, demanded to stay her, I was told I would have to fight for it. That it didn't count otherwise.